MEGHAN Markle broke down in tears as she revealed she told Prince Harry she “didn’t want to be alive anymore” and had suicidal thoughts in a shocking tell-all interview with Oprah.
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Meghan Markle said she had tried to reach out for help after struggling with her mental healthCredit: CBS
Meghan Markle broke down in tears as she revealed how she had struggled with her mental healthCredit: CBS
But in an explosive interview with Oprah aired on CBS overnight, the 39-year-old said she had been told she would not be able to seek help as it “wouldn’t be good for the institution.”
Breaking down in tears, pregnant Meghan said: “I just didn’t see a solution.
“I didn’t want to be alive anymore.”
And she said when she reached out for help with the Palace’s Human Resources team, she was told because she was not a paid employee, she could not be supported.
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One night, while suffering suicidal thoughts, Meghan claimed that she forced herself to go to an event with Harry, 36, – because she felt she couldn’t be left alone, for fear of what she might do.
And she said while the lights were down during the Cirque du Soleil premiere at the Royal Albert Hall in January 2019, she was “weeping” while clutching Harry’s hand until his knuckles were white.
The Duchess of Sussex, who was six months pregnant at the time, said she would cry while the lights were down in the royal box before she would compose herself for the cameras and smile during the intervals.
Meghan revealed: “I was ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry because of how much loss he suffered.
“But I knew that if I didn’t say it I would do it – because I just didn’t want to be alive anymore.
“I didn’t want to be alive anymore. That was a very clear and real and frightening, constant thought.
“And I remember, I remember how he just cradled me.”
She later said Harry, 36, “saved” her by ultimately quitting the Royal Family.
In the candid chat, Meghan said: “I think he saved all of us.
“He ultimately called it – we’ve got to find a way for us, for Archie and you made a decision that certainly saved my life and saved all of us.
“You need to want to be saved.”
Meghan at the Royal Albert Hall event where she said she was putting on a brave face
Meghan said Prince Harry saved her by acting to get them out of the FirmCredit: Getty – Pool
Meghan said she was extremely fragile while at an event with HarryCredit: PA:Press Association
The 39-year-old said she had struggled with pregnant with ArchieCredit: CBS
Harry said he was shocked after a conversation about the skin colour of his sonCredit: AP:Associated Press
Meghan and Harry said they were happy raising their son in the US now after quitting the Royal FamilyCredit: PA:Press Association/PA Images
And Harry later added he also went to a “dark place” – revealing he would return home to Meghan crying as she breastfed Archie at their home.
But he said he wouldn’t have left the Royal Family without Meghan, saying: “I wouldn’t have been able to because I myself was trapped as well.
“I didn’t see a way out. I was trapped within the system, just like the rest of my family are.”
Meghan also said she remembered one conversation about the pressures she was under with someone in the institution who told her “yes it’s terrible” – but that nothing had been done.
And she revealed that it was in fact one of Princess Diana’s friends that she reached out to, adding: “who else could understand what it’s actually like on the inside.”
The Duchess of Sussex said there had been conversations with herself and Prince Harry about their unborn son and what colour his skin would be – and “what that would mean or look like”.
A stunned Winfrey asked “who is having that conversation?”
Meghan replied she would not reveal the identity, saying: “I think that would be very damaging to them”.
And the couple said they had been concerned their son would not receive security or protection as he had not been given a prince title.
Meghan explained said: “All the grandeur around this stuff is not really important to me.
“But in those months when I was pregnant, all around the same time: we have in tandem he won’t be given security, a title and also concerns and conversations about how dark his skin might be when he’s born.”
Asked whether there were concerns that her child would be “too brown” and that would be a problem, Meghan said: “If that is the assumption you are making, that is a pretty safe one.”
YOU’RE NOT ALONE
EVERY 90 minutes in the UK a life is lost to suicide.
It doesn’t discriminate, touching the lives of people in every corner of society – from the homeless and unemployed to builders and doctors, reality stars and footballers.
It’s the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, more deadly than cancer and car crashes.
And men are three times more likely to take their own life than women.
Yet it’s rarely spoken of, a taboo that threatens to continue its deadly rampage unless we all stop and take notice, now.
That is why The Sun launched the You’re Not Alone campaign.
The aim is that by sharing practical advice, raising awareness and breaking down the barriers people face when talking about their mental health, we can all do our bit to help save lives.
Let’s all vow to ask for help when we need it, and listen out for others… You’re Not Alone.
If you, or anyone you know, needs help dealing with mental health problems, the following organisations provide support:
Meghan Markle may never come back to Britain after her bombshell Oprah Winfrey interviewCredit: CBS
Pregnant Meghan spoke with Prince HarryCredit: AP:Associated Press
Meghan and Harry admitted there were tensions with the Royal FamilyCredit: AFP or licensors
Meghan and Harry said they had no choice but to quit the Royal FamilyCredit: PA:Press Association
Oprah had introduced the interview – confirming that “no subject is off limits” and that Meghan had not been paid for the chat.
As the interview began, Meghan said she grew up not knowing much about the Royal Family, adding: “I will say I went into it naively.”
And while Prince Harry said he had no regrets, Meghan said she had one – that she had trusted that the Firm would protect her.
She explained: “I regret believing that.”
Harry further revealed he had been cut off by the Royal Family financially last year – and that for a time, his dad Prince Charles stopped taking his calls.
He said he had been “really let down”, adding: “Of course I will always love him but there’s a lot of hurt that’s happened and I will continue to make it one of my priorities to try and heal that.”
Other bombshells revealed by the couple in the two-hour special on CBS included that details on Meghan and Kate’s relations.
Speaking with Oprah, she said: “I don’t think it’s fair to her to get into the details of that because she apologised and I’ve forgiven her.
“What was hard to get over was being blamed for something not only I did not do, but that happened to me.”
And she said the wife of Prince William gave her flowers to apologise, adding “she’s a good person”.
Reports at the time had suggested Kate Middleton had been reduced to tears after a confrontation between the pair during preparations for the wedding.
But the couple said they were now “thriving” – and revealed they were expecting a little girl in the summer.
The bombshell revelations come amid fears Meghan may never return to Britain after the chat.
Insiders fear she and Prince Harry could have burnt their bridges by failing to tell family members what was in the two-hour chat before it was shown in the US at 1am today.
Sources say royals including the Queen were not planning to watch the interview, to be shown here on ITV at 9pm.
Meghan Markle and Prince Harry are seen here with the QueenCredit: AFP
The couple are raising their son Archie in the USCredit: PA:Press Association/PA Images
The interview will be broadcast on ITV on Monday nightCredit: Handout – Getty
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